Scared…

Why are we so scared to do certain things in life? For me I am scared almost terrified of snakes, they creep me out and make me very jumpy. I am also scared to be on ladders over eight feet tall, I’m 6′ 5″ and as far as I am concerned that’s high enough off the ground. I’m also scared to let people down, not fulfilling my word or, living up the expectations of others. However the one thing that I shouldn’t be scared of yet I am is giving up the control of my life. 15 years ago when God saved me I should have given up control of my life then, and while I did to an extent over the years I have tried to maintain some control. I am so scared to give complete control of my life to God in part because I am scared of what might happen and impart because I’m scared of not feeling in control. I know I’m not really in control to begin with but a part of me feels like I am. The part I’m most scared of is wether or not I could still let go of my life completely or not.

Addiction…SUCKS!!!!

Addictions suck. Plain and simple and for so many of us these vengeful life destroyers seek to do only one thing and it is definitely to hold us back from achieving all we can. Whether it’s tobacco or alcohol, drugs, porn, gluttony, workaholic, or lying. All these and many others are the catalyst for destroying many lives, and families as well as squashing many hopes and dreams. So why do so many of us fall prey to these addictions?

I believe that the key to these issues lies in part to a lack of self esteem and confidence in ourselves as well as a huge lack in confidence of what GOD is truly capable of much less what He really does desire to do for us.

I have my own list of issues I struggle with the least of which is an addiction to chewing tobacco. I have dipped since I was 15 and I will be 30 this summer. I have spent half of my life spitting money and my health out on the ground or in a cup. I have made my sorry attempts to quit but as with many half-assed attempts at things here I am still dipping (even as I write this).

I had an epiphany today at work while I was talking to a guy I work with. I made a comment that basically said, I haven’t quit yet because I haven’t wanted to. Plainly stated all the other attempts at quitting were for someone else and not for me so that I could better serve GOD and fulfill the call He has on my life. I contemplated this statement a lot today and I know that there is only one way to kick this addiction and I would say that this answer could do some serious good for a majority of us struggling with addictions.

I have to give this issue to GOD and rest upon the promises He has given me. Philippians 4:13 “I am able to do all things through HIM whom strengthens me.”

I ask that you would pray for me as I battle this issue again and I will more than happily pray for you if you want. Have a great day

Time off

My wife and I are about to leave for a week long cruise and to be honest I couldn’t be more excited. Now the destinations are great and I’m sure the activities on the boat will be fun, but the most important part, the part that will be the most needed, most exciting is that Sara and I will be able to disconnect from the daily hustle of life and really reconnect to each other. Like most people raising three kids, working a full time job, and all the other demands put on us it is often difficult to reconnect to each other in a way that is meaningful. The main goal of this time away from the kids and work, is to meet my wife again.

When was the last time you meet your spouse again and rediscovered each other? If it takes time to think about it and come up with an answer it’s been too long.

Wow a year and a half

Well since my last post over a year and half ago we just celebrated a new year! 2011 is out and 2012 is in! With all the hype that comes with New Year Resolutions I’ve decided to have a New Year Revolution. Why because a resolution typically lasts a few weeks or in a lot of cases a few days, for me it’s time for a revolution.

When I think about the word Revolution I think back to George Washington and the Revolutionary War. The colonists were tired of England’s rule over them and to become a new nation they revolted and fought for their freedom and independence. As cheesy as it may sound this year I will begin my own revolution against the things that keep me from the freedom and independence that GOD has and does desire for me and my family.

Well how am I going to do this? Well instead of coming up with a twelve step program or some other list of do’s and don’ts I will focus on the simple things. Starting my day with Christ and ending my day with Christ. For now that’s all I will divulge but keep me honest this year, if you don’t hear from me regularly drop me a line. I think it’s far too important for this to fall to the side and be so long before I let you know how things are going.